I saw in a vision, that I had been carrying my shame like a piece of armour - a breastplate of iron that was strapped to my shoulders.
After many wrong turns in my life and many failed marriages, I carried with me alot of shame from my mistakes, my failures. I saw in a vision, that I had been carrying my shame like a piece of armour - a breastplate of iron that was strapped to my shoulders. I didn't want that weight on me anymore. So the Lord showed me there could be an exchange...if I would only choose to put my shame on Him. In that moment I was devastated...I did want to be rid of it, but to put the shame of my mistakes on Jesus? He didn't deserve it. After all, don't I have to lie in the bed I had made? The words of a song had been going through my mind for 3 months before this encounter with Jesus. "Why would I make a bed in my shame, when a fountain of grace was running my way". So, I accepted His offer, I took off my iron breastplate and gave it to Jesus, and when He put it on, it disappeared. After all my shame had already been taken at the cross and in that moment he freed me from the shame of my past. What was the exchange - and what did He give me in return? He gave me a breastplate of righteousness (Ephesians 6:14) and He gave me a double portion (Isaiah 61:7).
I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.
Psalm 34:4-5
J.